I'm a meth head..

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  1. delade

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    I'm a meth head with a hollowed out mind. I have no brain except when I'm on meth.

    Well one day, my mother found out about my hollowness and my meth crazy. I was saying all sorts of strange things. I told her of UFO's and Aliens landing and how even Russians were invading. I wasn't the only one who thought that Russians were invading, in fact, many notable persons had similar thoughts. And so I thought those thoughts were valid. After all, I was instructed of such possibilities through the knowledges of those who were of more repute than I, right?

    Well, after she got word of my wondeful joys of being visited by UFO's, Aliens and Russians, she took matters into her own hands. She put down her spoon and fork and began her motherly duties once again.

    I could see in her eyes what was going on in her head. She was thinking, 'again'? 'Am I really doing this AGAIN'? Well, it was more of a flash instinct after that little 'sane' thought. She picked up the phone, dialed some phone numbers to some 'connections' she had and voila, I was whisked away. Whisked away to the Psychiatrist's office.

    'So, can you tell me what is going on', asked the doctor.

    My mother was there also, in the room, sitting there on that chair. Her on that chair, me on this chair and the Doctor in or on his leather plush rotating chair. 'Boy, I thought. The patients should be the ones with the leather plush rotating chairs and the doctor taking notes like all the other students in College'.

    My mother looked to me and I to her. I was wondering why she was looking as if she wanted me to answer. I was going to answer anyway. 'Go ahead, tell the Doctor, she told me.'

    Once again, the mother/child relationship was developing all over again.

    In my mind I was thinking, 'If only she would have let me answer before she advised, I would have answered and we would have moved onto the next question by now.'

    Well any hows.. I answered. The Doctor listened. My mother learned.

    No sooner after that did she whisk me into 'let's do normal things' mode..

    Restaurants with all you can eat MEAT!!! mmmm.. mmmm .mmmm More Beef for me please!

    She had on her armour. She wasn't going to let some crazy take over her life or the life of the one she bore into this world. Not if she could help it. If I wanted no part of her well being, well I would first have to be in my right mind to choose so. But until then she had her boxing gloves on and she was ready to go the full rounds, until Doom's Day or her day or my day... whichever may have arrived first.

    Of course she wasn't near me every minute of my meth head life. Those days where my brain was hollow but not hallowed.

    'Our Father who art in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name'.

    There is a difference between hollow and hallow. I am hollow. God is hallow. And maybe that is the reason why we get along so well. Hollow and Hallow.. agreeing on Hallowed things.

    I am still a meth head, still hollowed brained but at least my life is not about talking with Aliens or watching to see if I can get a video tape of one of them entering into one of their UFO's. Nor is my life about Russians anymore. I need to learn how to speak Russian first before needing to worry about them, right?

    So when at any time you hear someone tell you, 'it is not possible', you can boldly stand up, look them right in their eyes, and say, 'oh, you haven't met my mother, have you'?

    After all, someone had to do all your work for you when you couldn't do them for yourself, right?

    I sometimes wonder... How in God's Name did I feed myself in the middle of the night when I was only 1?

    Life isn't about survival or else I would have needed to survive, on my own, since my early years. Life is not about survival.. It is about mother/child relationships.'

    And any 'survivalist' who thinks that they have any right infringing upon mother/child relationships better get their boxing gloves on and be prepared to go the full rounds, unless they want to phone 'mom'...

    Home cooked meals.. Warm milk at night.. Maybe even some PJs, again.
    It sure beats sleeping on boxers on the cold sidewalk... It takes more 'PRIDE' to stay away from mom than it does to be humble.

    Being on the street, sleeping on boxers in boxers, has taught me a great loving lesson. Mothers will be mothers regardless of which Mother she is. Why? Because with all the mothers that pass by, it always leads to the same. They do some kind of motherly 'thing' that makes you end up with your own mother, eventually, anyway in some time or another... I don't know how they do it, but I'm sure with Alien technology and UFO trips, I might be able to find out and give the Russians some top Secret code in English.

    Then the mystery of Life would have been solved....

    The motherly 'thing'... The Beginning of all humans...

    Genesis 3:20
    "And Adam called his wife's name Eve; because she was the mother of all living."

    Now if Cain had only known about this then, we might all have turned out differently.. And hence is the importance of my excursions.

    Unfortunately, Cain did not.. I think he joined some 'shaolin' practice...




    And to think.. Out of a total human population of 4 (in that area), 1 turned out to become an exile. What of Abel? And what of their parents?

    And where did 'NOD' come from anyhows?


    Genesis 4:16
    "And Cain went out from the presence of the LORD, and dwelt in the land of Nod, on the east of Eden."

    Do your dreams become reality?

    Who knows??? This whole wide world could be a way of God 'comforting' Cain and/or his offspring...


    5112. nod : wandering
    (only defect. Nod {node}); from nuwd; exile -- wandering.

    5110. nud: bemoan, flee, get, mourn, make to move, take pity, remove, shake,

    A primitive root; to nod, i.e. Waver; figuratively, to wander, flee, disappear; also (from shaking the head in sympathy), to console, deplore, or (from tossing the head in scorn) taunt -- bemoan, flee, get, mourn, make to move, take pity, remove, shake, skip for joy, be sorry, vagabond, way, wandering.


    Obviously, Cain hasn't gotten right with God yet.

    Cain, the first to kill another human.. What a strange..... Well, regardless.. Cain is not my offspring.. He is Adam's and Eve's and most importantly, God's.

    HalleluYah!
     
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  2. delade

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    Sometimes being 'caned' is an act of life giving
    when being left alone would bring my mother's heart to be rend
    shaolin or not
    being disciplined and corrected by the one who has knowledge
    is like becoming a master in the art of shaolin ways.
     
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    Even to this day the shaolins walk through this life trying to be quiet like the grasshoppers in day.
     
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    I watched meth destroy my brother. Stop or die.

    Good luck,
     
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    When I was much younger and Crystal Meth was called rocket fuel I was in a popular metal band and was addicted to Meth. I realized where I was going and what I would become so I cured myself.....How did I accomplish this amazingly difficult feat (seriously)?

    I moved to Yosemite National Park and removed myself from everyone and everything that reminded me of or tempted me toward the drug. I spent over a decade living and loving that place and built a career rather than killing myself. In my opinion this saved my life and was probably the most important thing I have ever done.
     
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    FYI: If you or your kids are prescribed Adderall, it is meth.
     
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    you survived, good for you.
    my buddies son didn't, taking his own life when he couldn't win control...he tried removing himself from his former circle of users but it wasn't enough and too late.
     
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    This is an all too often result of these destructive compounds and unfortunately has become epidemic in scale. I was Lucky or smart, probably both...many are neither. Removing yourself does not remove the problem...I needed to eliminate everything (including temptation) from my life and view....including my "friends".
     
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    Wow!

    I am impressed........... I suspect that high levels of nutritional sulphur would help some meth addicts..... I am not sure what percentage but doing a detox is such a big part of the process of breaking an addiction.

    http://www.msm-info.com/#Detoxification

    ... this will also help some:

    http://www.msm-info.com/#Stress
     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    I got a suggestion for you........

    http://www.thomastwin.com/10 A Background to Silence.html
    and try literally raising your right hand up in the air and praying Isaiah 45:1.....

    https://www.blueletterbible.org/kjv/isa/45/1/s_724001
    That one really shifted my life around after I prayed that way back in 1990....
     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    This can help...........



    .. back around 1980 or '81 my then girlfriend talked me into
    being anointed and prayed for by two pastors.... for my rheumatoid arthritis.....
    and a month or two later.... i was kind of shocked when I noticed.... Hey... I'm not in pain???!

    I have had zero arthritis since then........ not even in wet and cold weather.... I had had arthritis since the summer of 1973 .....
     
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    My wife is a Pentecostal exorcist..... and a very good one at that.......
    I am Hebraic Roots Universalist Christian Mystic myself and she and I agree on relatively
    few points of theology but...........
    I attend whatever church she wants to go to and from what she has shown me........

    I believe that there are Pentecostals or Charismatics living near you who somehow or another.....
    that I do not fully comprehend... they can pray.... .and your meth addiction will disappear.......

    This man Todd White has been used to transform our daughter's life.......
    she has listened to dozens....... (perhaps even a hundred of his videos):

    His 22 years as a drug addict were not wasted.......
    he was just prepared for a bigger job later on......

     
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    I was close to suicide in 1990......
    I was actually reacting to a legal nutritional product that
    increased the levels of oxygen in my blood to the point where I became psychic........

    i saw the aura's around a flock of birds....
    and I was going through a massive philosophical / theological crisis that had me FURIOUS with
    Rabbi and Messiah Yeshua / Jesus.... whose plan seemed........
    less than brilliant at that time.......

    http://www.politicalforum.com/index...e-christian-gospel-be-much-worse-news.530504/
    Could the Christian gospel be much worse news?

     
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    Have you ever had a dream where you actually felt like you coulndn't move? Parzlyzed? Then you wake up and you're like, 'whoa', im glad i'm alive?
     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    I have only experienced this on a very small scale........
    but I am 90+% certain that your spirit / soul was outside your body...

    ... .was beginning to come back into your body and your eyes begin to work first......
    and your ability to control your muscles become linked to your soul again later............. but time is funny in that state so seconds... could feel like many minutes......

    The Bruce F. MacDonald Ph. d. resurrection is one of the best that I know of to compare that type of experience to because he was told three times....... that he did not have to go back into his body....... that the next phase could be worked out in another way.... the damage to his back would make for a difficult life.......
    and coming back into his body after being so damaged.....
    was really, really, really challenging............
    but similar to what you describe.... by kind of like ten times worse,.
     
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    You Sir...... may well have a drug problem.......
    but you obviously have the talent to write a book......
    that could well be published and could well significantly positively alter the formula for
    thousands, if not tens of thousands..... if not for millions of people........

    I went to send you a personal message but could not...... perhaps you could message me......
    This will give you some ideas on the book that I have in mind:


    http://www.politicalforum.com/index.php?threads/auditions-for-the-role-of-elijah-needed.499830/

    Auditions for the role of Elijah needed....

    The following correspondence was with Rabbi Yeshayahu Hollander who is now a retired Sanhedrin Rabbi.

    https://www.tapatalk.com/groups/tate4centralnova/my-correspondence-with-rabbi-t383.html#.WNuNN1KZOV4


    Rabbi ........, linking Jerusalem Third Temple with Grand Unified Theory of Modern World Problems.Wednesday, April 14, 2010 1:00 PM
     
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    This thread needs more laser light show.
     
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    delade Well-Known Member

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    thanks for the positive encouragement. I do have a question... How many pages are books, usually?

     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    Usually around the three hundred page mark........
    this would be easier though because if your book is your own
    personal analysis of what others are attempting to do.......

    .... then many of the pages could be quotations.....

    The Apostle Judas Didymus Thomas, (Doubting Thomas), has reincarnated.......
    and his books are off the scale brilliant....

    http://www.thomastwin.com/6 A Thomas background.html

    Page 107 to the end of this book will answer many of your questions about the hidden teaching of Messiah Yeshua - Jesus.....

    At this link you should be able to read the first sixty pages or so but.... it is from 107 onward that is really astonishing....

    https://books.google.ca/books?id=kbiGjKJl4D4C&q=
     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    "The Torch and the Sword" by Pastor Rick Joyner is awesome.... and it is only about 168 pages..... it is awesome... .so a book does not have to be 300 pages to be really good.

    One possible title for you that jumps at me....... could be....."Have the Twelve Apostles Reincarnated?"..... and of course you would be reaching out to a very different audience than the lambs and sheep that Pastor Rick is feeding.

    Or......"The Twelve Are Back".... would be a good title too.

    Today is the sixth day....... of the sixth month.... in the year 2000 +6 +6 +6.......
    and Jews apparently read Psalms 31, 32 and 33 today...... Wow, but these Psalms are appropriate for what is happening in my own family.........

    https://www.blueletterbible.org/kjv/psa/31/1/s_509001

    Christian Andreason has a massive Joseph.... type of calling on his life.......
    He has revealed essentially all important mysteries..... and his book is there for free......

    http://www.allaboutchristian.com/spirituality/

    This is one of the most important books written in the last fifty years.... .why hasn't a publisher grabbed it?????

    I don't know the answer to that......
    but the key to causing some of these amazing writings to take off could be
    a commentary or analysis of them....... that fills people in on the larger picture.

    I wrote to Harper Collins perhaps twenty - thirty years ago and found out that
    quotations from their published books......... could comprise up to 25% of
    a commentary on those books..........
     
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    DennisTate Well-Known Member Past Donor

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    LOL!
    Delade has gotten 9790 views in only six months........
    which is something of a record for politicalforum..... So.....
    if he had a "lazer light show"....... the server might short circuit!?
     
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    After 12 minutes in this audio is some information about Meth.......
    I think that this is how it affects the majority.......
    but obviously you have reacted differently to it.......

     
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    Sleep Paralysis happens to many people. Happened to myself in very stressful situations. Felt like I couldn't breath.

    My body thought I was awake, but I was barely awake. You slowly start to wake up and gain motor functions.

    Eliminating as much stress as possible will help with that.
     

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