My Second Life and other Secrets

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I think I see now what Ritter was trying to say. Ritter has the morals he or she follows on a personal level, yet does not subject everyone to the same standard or believe that the world is conveniently in line with them. Something that so far seems beyond your comprehension with the assumptions about other people you've made. That makes it sound like a contradiction, but it is merely differentiating between personal conscience and the difference between what one feels and what actually may be.

 

It sounds like what he did find, whatever it really is, has put him into a similar emotional situation - finding a kind of contentment with his life after some prior crisis. I think that, philosophically, everyone seeks that kind of place in the end, and different people find it in different ways.

 

I saw Number One [my first SB] today for the first time in almost two years. It was such a joy to see her; more than I can say. We still have that special bond but seem to have comfortably moved into friendship mode. She is heavily into spirituality now [new-age type of stuff], is still with the bf she left me for over two and a half years ago, still looks fantastic, and seems extremely happy. We were able to talk about our three years together and reflect on it all with fond memories and a good number of laughs. Her spiritual pursuits have led her to conclude that we have lived several lifetimes together in past lives. That is why we bonded so strongly so quickly. I find that makes my heart happy. That she believe it is all that matters. I can see it in her eyes that she still loves me. And I will always love her. But now we can share that without the complications. It is a good place. So I guess even sad endings can have happy endings.

 

In my third life (the one I started after the second one became boring), I have integrated non-human activities into lifestyle adaptation in order to spice things up. After losing my previous partners to Alien abductions and demonic possession I learned my lesson about interdimensional travel and soul transfer outside of dimensional space...never again will I risk bodily fluid transfer with Zwarians, regardless of the number our breasts or the firmness.
Today I met my newest pupil in the Art of being exceptional. She is more beautiful than anyone can imagine and well beyond anything you mere human will ever deserve, I however find her almost adequate. I of course allowed her to service me after she begged for a few minutes and I felt pity, the experience was pleasurable for me and amazing for her. I feel a certain level of pride for allowing myself to show such compassion and instill joy into her life.
The line forming outside the door of my Island in paradise calls for my attention now, so I apologize for leaving you all in suspense of my further exploits. Until next time.....enjoy the hearts you're eating out.

 

Does Jo Grant know all this Dr.?

 

Jo does.....but Katy might be slightly confused.

 

EXTERMINATE!

EXTERMINATE!

EXTERMINATE!

 

One of the more profound comments, at least to me: We were talking about the complexity of it all. I told her at one point that I always knew she was going to break my heart, and that's okay. I accepted that would happen the day I fell in love with her. I could see that she still feels badly about it. But I wanted to impress upon her all the good that came from our relationship. And I found myself saying that when you love someone that much, it makes you a better person. I had never thought about it explicitly before but it's true. By loving her more than I thought possible, I found a side of myself that I didn't know existed; an ability to feel things not only more deeply than I imagined possible, but also to love more easily. I am an entirely different person because I loved her so much.

I also found myself talking about acceptance in a way I had never considered directly. What made our relationship possible was accepting the limits - knowing she would leave me one day. I took on this approach in the sugar world and discuss it in my profile. That has received a fair number of comments. Quite a few women have said that they were impressed with my attitude in this regard. It was acceptance of limits that gave me the best three years of my life. And it is acceptance of limits, often unknown but there, that makes my lifestyle possible. I found myself saying that when you learn to accept limits, the entire world opens up before you.

An interesting ps: My current sb brought up the subject of moving in together. I know her well enough to know that she's thinking about it. I don't think even she knows if she would consider such a thing, at least not now, but I never said a thing. This was her own thinking at work.

The dynamic was rather interesting when our new friend was here. We were clearly "a couple" in her eyes. And in a way I've never felt till now, we did feel like a couple in a very traditional sense. At one point my sb even made a joke asking if we're married now. So she was feeling it too.

I told Number One about this today. This was after telling her about our threesome. I then pointed out that this could be interesting. If my sb moves in with me, she is likely going to be interested in seeing women. So I guess WE will need a sugar baby! In fact, we already have one. I got my sugar baby a sugar baby! LOL!!! [There's got to be a song in that line!]

The bad news: Our new SB and I are supposed to go shopping soon. This is gonna hurt!

 

You were in your late 40s and met 100 young women? How?

 

Why is that? If you're saying you'll accept her leaving I guess that's OK but do you really ever have a choice in that anyway? Keep her till you die if she will have you, she will not be too old to find someone else when you're gone. (Women can always find men anyway, it's much easier for them)

 

Buncha money. He says he lost everything but I'm figuring he's one of those where losing everything means he can only afford a staff of five at his home. Once you have a certain level of bucks you really can't lose it all

 

Yes, a younger woman can wake us up to the wonders of the world around us. I too went that route and don't regret it.

 

It's really easy when you know your unlimited potential and accept the incredible power or your astounding personal physical vibration pattern. This allows for transcendence of the mental blocks traditional sexual attitudes imposed and availability of what I call impotence reversal mentality which allows for increased virility, penis size, tongue length, and mental manipulation of female anatomy resulting in airborne pheremone production that subconsciously begins the orgasm before physical contact occurs.
Once you master the 7 steps in my program (only 5 instalments of $29.95 each) you will become the pseudo guru personified in the OP and designated a "Chick Magnet" in the Tecoyan scale of badassedness.

 

You may be right. Who the hell knows where the essence comes from.

 

It COMES from Emeril. BAM!

 

I keep thinking about my coffee date with Number One the other day. I had to point out to her that she was my 119th coffee date since she left.

Another funny comment: When I told her what my current sb said, that she thinks she's 15% lesbian, Number One replied, "We all are". LOL!

But there was something else that I noticed a couple of times. It was a familiar look of sadness in her eyes at times. It was when I talked about the effect she had on me and how hard I fell for her. It took a few moments but then I remembered. When we first met, she and her bf had just split up. He was in and out of her life the entire time I was seeing her. He knew about us but when they were together, they were in an open relationship. We talked from time to time about how she and I were in the same boat, in many ways. I was madly in love with her and I couldn't have her, and she was madly in love with her bf, who she couldn't have either. Their relationship was always volatile and full of drama. And he just isn't the type to settle down. It was funny; I didn't have to wear a condom because she knew she could trust me, We had mutual testing done when we met and I gave her my word that I wouldn't see anyone else. But her bf always had to wear one.

I remember doing something for her one day... it was some little thing but thoughtful. And she started to cry. After a moment she said something in frustration along the lines of, why can't men like her bf be as good to her as I am. It always caused her pain to know deep down that I loved her more than her bf ever could. And when we talked about those feelings the other day, I saw the same pain in her eyes. I guess we are both still chasing rainbows.

 

Poof! Just like that, my romance with 13 is over. I have been pushing her for more of a commitment and she has been equivocating. It's like chasing a butterfly in a whirlwind! LOL! I think she was toying with the idea but doesn't really want to go there. When I pushed and couldn't get a straight answer, I told her I need to take a little time off to adjust my thinking. We have had a wonderful relationship and we've had lots of fun, but we had talked about this being more. At this point I am too emotionally invested to just revert to a FWB/NSA relationship overnight. I was feeling a little hurt but it's not really her fault. It takes time to know how this all plays out and what kind of chemistry we both feel. But it is important to not make this out to be more than it is, and to keep things in perspective. I am reaching for the gold ring. I thought I had found the right woman but not quite.

On the up side, the new woman who joined us for our threesome would love to see me again. It seems that all of that work I did to find her for 13, was really for me! How's that for Karma? And she's freaking gorgeous! 13 is very pretty but this woman is more in league with Number One in terms of looks - smoking hot! So just like that I am on to Number 14. With her it's very different. She said up front that she is only interested in NSA FWB, so that's all I can expect. But I received an unusually enthusiastic kiss when she left and she jumped at the idea of just her and I getting together. I will probably still see 13 from time to time but I don't know yet. I need to see if we can change gears. 14 is so hot that if this is only for fun, I don't really have a reason to go back. But doing another threesome from time to time would be fun. And we did have a lot of fun. We may still do some adventures on weekends. We will see.

Onward and forward. 14 is coming over this weekend. Thanks to the Coolidge Effect, seeing a new woman is always fun. Nothing like being in the arms of a beautiful woman to mend a broken heart. It helps to get the Oxytocin going with someone new. I'm monogamous by nature but I guess I will just have to suffer. And you never know. So far we have had fantastic chemistry. This could definitely work out to be more but I can't expect that.

Wiki

 

We had a fantastic time! She loves my little setup and routine - music, candles, scents, massage, and lots of attention to her. And we are a fantastic match sexually. I hate to say it, but I am actually a little intimidated by her beauty. I didn't think that was possible any more. It didn't hit me until last night but she looks strikingly similar to Catherine Heigl, whom I've a crush on for years. Same face, same body, very much the same smile, and has that commanding there's-a-goddess-in-the-room presence. With her high heels on she's taller than me. She's the most beautiful woman I've met since Number One came into my life. I had to bite my tongue to keep from gushing at times as I watched her. This isn't about having a deep connection but I can live with breathtaking beauty for awhile.

 

The OPer doesn't seem to have any secrets contrary to the title of this thread.

 

You are spot on there.

 

What about a tell-all thread is confusing?

As a matter of fact there is plenty I'm not telling but that would get far more risque than anything I've posted. I'm afraid some members might have a heart attack.

I've told most of the women I've seen that I write about my experiences online. Without exception they are glad someone is telling the real story. It was funny. I had posted for a time at another forum when I was still seeing Number One. As time went on she became more and more angry at some of the responses and wanted to start posting as well. When I mentioned that she had decided to post, the staff asked that she not do that. They said they would end up having to ban half of their members.

 

It is too bad about 13. I was really falling for her. It was striking to get 14's perspective on this. She said she was really surprised to hear from me; that in her eyes, we [13 and I] were a couple. And we felt like a couple. She was surprised by the level of emotional involvement 13 and I had. Damn So close. 13 wanted to keep seeing me but I just can't backpedal like that. It took all the wind out of my sails. If she isn't ready to move this ahead by now, she never will. I thought we were there. I was really surprised when she started equivocating. But it's a lot to ask. In this case I guess it was a bridge too far.

... and this is still dating. Sometimes it just doesn't work out no matter how promising the start.

 

This works. We have a great time together. We plan to do some hiking and dinners but her time is very limited - she's taking 18 units this quarter. So more than not it's just going to be staying here one night on weekends and maybe a rendezvous during the week. But the time we do have is great. We have a lot of common interests especially in the sciences. So we have a lot to talk about. She loves to talk about her studies and the research she wants to do. And I enjoy hearing about it. I love her enthusiasm. She lights up when she talks about her field of study. She's a very smart young lady who plans to get her Ph.D. Given her 3.95 GPA in her senior year, I'd say she has a shot.

She has a lot of neck and shoulder pain from stress and carrying books and a computer around campus. My massages are helping a lot [I do deep tissue massage]. She keeps going on about how I could make money as a professional masseuse. So I suggested that I could open a place and call it Happy Endings.

I am tired of the search for true love for now. I need a break. We have quickly developed a wonderful buddy relationship and the sex is awesome. This works. She's fun, gorgeous, sexy as hell, a bit on the kinky side, dependable as can be. I did have to get ahead of my awestruck reaction to her beauty before it became too obvious. She clearly wants someone who is dominant in bed. I can handle that. Haha!