I don't feel much like explaining why I'm putting this here but please people, if you ever feel so hopeless and down that you feel the need to take your own life, please please please talk to someone. Whatever our disagreements are I would hate for anyone here to do something like that. You are valued and people do care, even if you can't see it. Reach out to those around you or even a stranger if you have to, just do something please. https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
I will add. Samaritans can take calls, texts and emails. https://samaritanshope.org/our-services/24-7-helpline/ Thank you for taking the time to think about others, RedWolf.