My friend don't lose faith in yourself and i must say that i have seen many persons in the nursing homes or the care centers and in the beginning they were just like you and were thinking of quitting their lives and they simply just want to sat in darkness and be all alone all the time but most of them recovered ..... The reason was their self determination and their self confidence which enhanced the good things in them and now many of them have quit drinking and living with their families happily....
Got it down to a science,do ya. What if they put you in a rubber room.Falling down won't cut it ... Pal.
Hummingbird indicated (I think) that there are many reasons for alcohol addiction. Now I'm no expert but I've been there as a practitioner, that's all. Yep, nervous breakdown preceded or perhaps accompanied the escalation in drinking. Anyway that's perhaps a separate issue. What I would like to say is that, as Hummingbird said, it's a disease, not a personality flaw. Anyone who wags the finger in that way can eff off, they're not being helpful. But saying it's a disease isn't a get out of gaol/jail card either. Many diseases can be treated and so with alcohol addiction there are treatments. Get one. AA might work for you but as I understand it they substitute a higher force for the need for alcohol. Hey if it works it works. Where I used to live there was actually an AA chapter for free thinkers who couldn't work with the slightly God-oriented approach and preferred a sort of secular humanist approach. As I said, whatever works. You sound like you're disillusioned with your drinking. That's a good start. Don't let the bloody stuff push you around. It's just not worth it.
