Next Tuesday I had an out-patient appointment to remove a pyogenic granuloma (a harmless skin lesion) on the underneath of my right-hand ring finger. Now I've been obsessing about it for c. 7 weeks, a) because I would need a digital block (a local anaesthetic numbing of the finger) and b) because digital blocks are not only extremely painful because of the propinquity of the injection needle to bone owing to lack of soft tissue in a finger, but often ineffective; so I was freaking out by imagining the pain of having it excised essentially sans anaesthetic by the 'curette and cauterisation' procedure, which speaks for itself, viz. a curette is a razor sharp spoon-shaped surgical implement, and the cauterisation is the subsequent sealing of the blood supply vessel by direct-contact electrical heat (a kind of sophisticated soldering iron) to close the vessel thereby preventing the return of the condition (not guaranteed, but probable). To come to the point: Imagining how it would be on the day, and knowing the number of foreign staff in the NHS these days, I wondered how I'd feel about it if I went into the room for the procedure and the doctor was wearing a full-face hijab. I decided that if I did, I'd excuse myself and walk out, thence to have it done privately at a cost of about £1000. Now that doctor might have been the best in the country at doing the procedure, but I still felt uncomfortable about it. Does that make me racist? I've never thought of myself as being racist, but I've been wondering if, deep down, I am. Anyone got any thoughts on any of that? Ps. 3 days ago the nodule detached itself, and in my visit yesterday to report it to my dermatology-specialising GP, he confirmed that in three or four weeks I'd never even know I'd had it. But it got me thinking about the ethical aspect - and actually my GP is (I think) Indian or a Pakistani and sure knows his stuff.